Hi. My name is Jesse and I’m an alcoholic.

I know what you’re thinking; “Jesse is such a sweet kid. He’s not an alcoholic!” I agree, I’m a sweet kid, but I have to disagree on the latter. Though I’m not the typical alcoholic (I don’t drink daily, sometimes not even weekly!), I have learned that binge drinking is another form of alcoholism.

For those that know me, I am no stranger to partying hard and blacking out. In fact, I black out most nights that I hit the drink.

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It’s a scary thing to lose control and have no recollection of the night before. It has been the cause of many problems, embarrassment and financial problems; most recently, losing two pairs of glasses in two weeks.

So as of June 1, I have decided to break this hangover habit and limit my drinking.

I have tried quitting cold turkey in the past which has only resulted in me falling back into old ways on my first attempt back in the social drinking game.

These past attempts have foiled not due to lack of support, but due to my lack of motivation and willingness to quit the bottle.

After much deliberation I settled upon a 3 drink limit. This enables me to still go out, get loose and not feel like the odd man out.

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I invite you along for the ride, through the highs and lows of this journey as I share this experience and some drunken stories from my past in an attempt to (finally) take control of this problem.

The Koreans have created a new exercise machine called Horse Riding Fitness Ace Power! The fact that I can’t understand a word they are saying makes it even that much better. Actually, there is one word I picked up on. Listen carefully at 2:55 in the video:

I can’t wait to see South Park’s parody of this piece of equipment. Here’s a look back on their Shake Weight commercial:

I should be asleep. I’m going to Canada’s Wonderland early in the morning, but have been glued to my computer screen spending the last 2-3 hours on Google and YouTube researching swing dancing.

I’m a big fan of old movies, mainly for the music and dance. The other day, I found a great oldies radio station named The UK 1940s Radio Station. It plays music and news from the 1920s-40s. I put the station on to fall asleep to but the music just makes me want to dance, hence my current state of insomnia.

I’ve learned that there are many types of dance that play a part in swing dancing like The Charleston, Lindy Hop, Jive, and Jazz.

There’s a Saturday Night Swing dance held weekly at the Dovercourt House near my place. Maybe I’ll check it out this week.

I’ll leave you with my favourite old and new video from the night, Whitey’s Lindy Hoppers from the movie Helzapoppin’, and Camp Jitterbug 2010 Lindy Hop Couples Finals. Such talent!

Well that was fun! Some Facebook creepin’ led me to Emo Picnic 7 hosted by Chris Cammarata from POPPUNKSNOTDEAD.NET. It’s a site that I frequent to find new music so it was great to meet Chris.

The weather man was calling for thunderstorms this afternoon but as luck would have it, the storms steered clear of Christie Pits Park.

We enjoyed some toys and games from the dollar store and some delicious cupcakes, sandwiches and pasta.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

First up was Burlington’s Fire Away. Even though it was an acoustic set, the entire pop punk outfit made the trip to the city to hang out. Mike was even kind enough to buy me an Arizona from the corner store. I’m looking forward to seeing these guys again with Everyone Everywhere on June 26th at Sneaky Dee’s.

Next was Braden Barrie, better known by his stage name of SayWeCanFly. He looked so young but packed a punch with his powerful, clean vocals and intelligent lyrics that really hit home. For fans of Cute Is What We Aim For and The Rocket Summer.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Last to play was Like Pacific. I can’t help but compare this Toronto band to The Wonder Years. Catchy pop punk (with the odd hardcore breakdown) paired together with Soupy-esque lyrics that feel like you’re talking to a bro. Singer, Jordan, is even a ginger! Great stuff.

Thanks again to Chris for putting on the event and providing goodies for everyone, and thanks to the bands and new friends. See you around.

I’m at a bit of a crossroads in my life. I have recently quit my job and moved to a new city (again) to try to find opportunity and happiness. Since making the move, I have been experiencing anxiety and uncertainty. It’s not the first time I’ve experienced these emotions but it’s never a welcome feeling.

I’ve always been one to follow my gut and do what makes me happy, but as I get older (and have more talks with my family about my future) I worry more about what’s in store for me 5 or 10 years down the road. One thing that worries me is that I will turn out like my dad; over 50, unemployed and still living at home.

I have come to realize that every decision that I have made has led me to where I am today and I wonder, have I made the right decisions recently? Should I have waited until my lease was up before moving? What if I had not quit my job in Ottawa? What am I going to do about my debt?

Are these some of the same decisions my dad made when he was my age?

After watching the following Ted Talks video featuring psychologist Honey Langcaster James, I have been inspired to answer these questions and come up with a solution; a life solution to figure out what is most important to me and what I need to do to achieve these goals.

She presents a simple 7-step solution with a clever acronym:
Begin with your happy ending
Explore
Look, listen and learn
Invest
Equip your environment
Visualize
Expect success

First off, I think it’s a waste of time to dwell on the past and hold onto regrets. I don’t regret moving. I don’t regret moving the first time either and studying a near-pointless subject in college (Ski Resort Operations and Management) that has led me to debt. It’s that program that brought me to Whistler and gave me some great opportunities during my four years there. It’s also the place where I met some of my best friends and made some great memories. Now living in Toronto, I just have to be patient to find a job and get a routine in place before I can shake off this anxiety; the same anxiety that I felt during that first move.

I will analyze my debt more closely and come up with a plan to reduce that debt. In order to do that, I need to find the right job(s) to pay the bills and live within my earnings (I like to think that I am older and wiser and have learned from my past mistakes) all while paying off debt first and saving second. I’m not sure what I’ll be saving for, but I’ve got some time to figure that out.

At the same time, I don’t want to overwork myself and need to make time for my hobbies; skateboarding, photography, and playing music. Of course, those cost money as well.

It seems I have a lot to think about.

Take the time to watch the video and really think about the 7 steps presented by Ms James. Maybe this will help to believe in yourself and figure out a life solution as well.

Feel free to share your goals and action plan in the comments.

Let’s aim big and go far.

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